Here we go again

Well I have started again.... I have decided that a heart attack doesn't sound like a good thing for my kids or family to have to deal with.

So....this week I have made it to the gym and/or walked each day. I feel much better afterward, but I have to be honest. The hip and knee are killing me. I had to shorten my workout on Monday because I thought I was going to scream in pain from the hip. I know--it's a catch 22. The pain is in part caused by the weight gain. The knee and hip pain are on the right side, so I know that I am definitely favoring the knee by putting undue stress on the hip.

I am really trying to eat in small portions and so far I have been able to do it okay.

I'm really disgusted with myself because I have gained all of the weight I had lost six years ago. It's taken me six years to gain it all back, so I know it won't be gone overnight.

I just have to get myself to the gym. Every day.